I have been a bit silent on here lately. I probably should not have been, after thinking about it. I started a new job in September. I went from a job where I was on my feet walking and moving around all day, to a job where I am not sitting all day.

This change has had me struggling BIG time! I have been on a up and down for months. When I had planned and wanted to reach my goal weight this year, to just wanting to move my body more.

With this constant up and down and struggle to see that scale move, I have really struggled with my mindset.

I said when I started this I would share the good the bad and ugly all while being honest!

I can tell you this, I have made it through weeks on the this journey where I would gain 10 pound in one week, I was like I got this. I know what I did and I will turn this around. While the next week I would lose 5 pounds, I never gave up on myself!

These last months I was ready to give up on myself. I had shared with my WW coach that I was DONE, I was ready to quite! That this up and down is really challenging my motivation and mindset.

I am not a quitter! On this journey I have never given up on myself, like I was ready to do recently. That is frustrating to me, that I was ready to quite on myself!

I took a step back and put my scale away for a week. I did NOT quit, I stepped back and refocused on “WHY” I started this journey! I focused on my food. Now am I perfect on what I eat everyday NO. But I stay within my points.

I knew the last 25 pounds I have to lose to reach my goal, where not going to be easy. My body has spent its entire life being obese and at some point it was going to fight me on dropping lower and lower.

I also know that I HAVE GOT TO MOVE MORE for this work and for me to maintain this as a new lifestyle! Remember what I said at the beginning, I have a new job where I am sitting all day! Do you see where my problem is right!

After taking sometime to look at my “WHY” and look at my goals and what I want to accomplish. I am working daily on moving more, and keeping my mindset on the right path to get me to where I want to be.

I have made a recommitment to myself! For better or worse! I am recommitted to not giving up on myself.